bitch, please.

bad mood yet this;

Sun, 15 Jan 2006 05:47:22 GMT

FallnAftrFuneral: im starving
FallnAftrFuneral: WAIT
FallnAftrFuneral: what is open still around now?
gangstur x core: mmmmmm dennys?
FallnAftrFuneral: damn
FallnAftrFuneral: now all i need is the motivation to get out of my chair and actually do some action
FallnAftrFuneral: but also
FallnAftrFuneral: i dont have a car
FallnAftrFuneral: fuuuck
gangstur x core: hahahhaHAHHH
FallnAftrFuneral: hey.. call up the slave
FallnAftrFuneral: and tell him to take us to dennys
gangstur x core: hes a brat ¬ home.
FallnAftrFuneral: huh?
FallnAftrFuneral: are we talking about the same person here?
gangstur x core: derek?
FallnAftrFuneral: NOOO
gangstur x core: whos the slave/
FallnAftrFuneral: thats EDGEslave
FallnAftrFuneral: im talking about
FallnAftrFuneral: slave slave
gangstur x core: ....
FallnAftrFuneral: u know
gangstur x core: give me a hint
FallnAftrFuneral: kevin
gangstur x core: HAHHAHHAHAHA
FallnAftrFuneral: there ur hint
FallnAftrFuneral: kinda tuff huh
FallnAftrFuneral: well it would have been for me.. i like scored a negative on my I.Q. test
gangstur x core: JASHAHHHAHHAHAH &*@#$@#

i love my twin <333

Fri, 13 Jan 2006 01:38:50 GMT

jew bagel fo sho: my identical siamese twinn
gangstur x core: we are attached, by the heart. <3
jew bagel fo sho: hellz yeaahhh
jew bagel fo sho: i'm seeing you soon
jew bagel fo sho: like soon
jew bagel fo sho: likeee.. ummm.. you get like 72 hours
jew bagel fo sho: no more delays
gangstur x core: MY BDAY IS TUESDAY!!!!!!!!
jew bagel fo sho: and i'm going to lift you off the ground dramatically and sew you to my butt so you can never leave me
jew bagel fo sho: this tuesday?!
gangstur x core: hahahha
gangstur x core: yes mam
jew bagel fo sho: AAAHHHHH
jew bagel fo sho: i'm getting you a present
jew bagel fo sho: and it will be awesome
jew bagel fo sho: not even awesome.. awesome is an understatement.. you'd have to make up a word to explain it
jew bagel fo sho: like.. err
jew bagel fo sho: lextastic
gangstur x core: hahahah ily.
jew bagel fo sho: jeez girl youz my twin
jew bagel fo sho: i gotta get you like mad bling yo
gangstur x core: omg i love you
gangstur x core: i need a grill
jew bagel fo sho: then a grill you will get
gangstur x core: youre amazing.
jew bagel fo sho: jeez you make me conceited
gangstur x core: its my job :-)
jew bagel fo sho: because of you i am the BOMBBBBB
gangstur x core: ^^^
jew bagel fo sho: well you do your jobb [deep manly pedofile voice] gggooooooddd

fuck you world.

Tue, 03 Jan 2006 23:53:20 GMT

In a world where the cliche lines are the answers to the fill-in-the-blank day to day troubles, where orginality is the fake excuse for every single person who has made their haircut have better taste then the music they listen to the clothes they wear &the people they impact. this is the world we thrive in, that world that our generations will look back &mock those horrible shiny-sequenced purses &converse will still be in style 5o years from now. but what can you do about that? one person can't make a difference unless that one person is backed up by a giant corporation, or a giant record label, or even a giant bank account.let's be real here, if every person could change an entire nation in this day &age, everyone would try.

kimdone. bye.

honestly,

Tue, 03 Jan 2006 03:11:41 GMT

my life is at its highest point right about now.

GOOD;
i just came back from connecticut.
i got to see my family &goober, who i love a lot.

i have the most amazing friends,
i might hate some of them at times,
but i couldnt ask for better ones.
we fight, we make up, its life.
&*@^&$*&@ i'd die without them, mhm.

im sad though because bianca &i have drifted apart, as you could say.
i mean we are still best friends, just we dont hang out at all anymore &it makes me unhappy.
but, ill always love that girl no matter what, ill always be there for her.

my boyfriend &i are at best right now.
we love love love eachother &thats all that matters.
i couldn't ask for anyone else.
him making me happy is all i want.
alexa is in love &happy, for once.

i've had my ups &my downs this year, but everything is working out for the best.
this year is going to be a very good year.
nothing is going to bring me down, i promise this.

BAD;
im sure people will try to fuck up my year
&try to pull me into drama,
but seriously stfu or ill fucking stick a dick in your eye.

i officially hate drama, i might be in it &around it, but i fucking hate it.
people seriously need to take a look around &grow the fuck up.
i mean stop worrying about other peoples lives &live your own.
drama is so unnecessary.
truthfully, whats the point of it all?
to boost up your fucking ego, to make you look like a fucking ass?
cause youre fucking cool.

%^&@*&#*(
whatever,
new year.
things ARE-A-CHANGIN.

btw.
today was good.
hung out with jill &jamie.
picked up hooper.
went to the beach,
swam,
pictures,
naked-ness.
wtf. hahaha

then my fucking wife showed up, brittaanyy <3
nicole, my little qtface.
i love those girls man.
&*@#*

ahhhhhh long entry, pretty gay.
byeeeeeeeeeeeee <33iloveeveryone?k.

CONNECTICUT.

Fri, 23 Dec 2005 16:25:02 GMT

okay so ive been here for 3 days now.
i love it here, its awesome, even though its 20 degrees out.
i love my family &ive missed them a lot.
i havent seen like any of my friends yet &&&ill be fucking pissed if i dont see them
because thats what always happens.
im suppose to hang out with maxine tonight but im going out to dinner instead i guess?

ehhh i dont know, im at my cousin house alone,
okay nevermind my brother just got here.
uhm i have a bunch of pictures of me &derek &some with gabi.
i dont have the cord so ill update with them when i get home.

that would be on dec 30th.
im torn.
i dont know i love it here, but i fucking miss everyone in florida.
i miss gina &christina &bianca &caeyla &lindsay &jill &sabrina &sami &&all my besties.
& i miss my boyfriend &all those cool kids.

!@#$%^&* i dont know. im home sick.

so basically;

Fri, 02 Dec 2005 02:38:30 GMT

i stayed home today because of my uterus.
sucks, BUT i did get to watch SIXTEEN CANDLES, OMG!
=] that seriously made my day.
then yeh i was awakened today by bianca at 6;22 bitch.
she left my house &&&i went back to sleep, then was woken up again from kevin's texts.
&&&then i ate, mmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

TONIGHT WAS THE OC.
i cryed as usual.
<3

but yeh bye. <3

tonight, the game of truth.

Thu, 13 Oct 2005 04:02:24 GMT

Some Truth--

When you get your heart broken for the first time, a little bit of you goes away. &&everytime after that, your heart gets broken the pain gets worse. You go back to remember that first heart break &you remember how it felt to be hurt, embarrassed, mad, sad, &still in love with the same person all at once. &&every time we get our heart broke, we go back to that person &that combination of feelings. Your first heart break stays with you forever because that was the first time you lost a part of you that no one can give back. &&even though, you move on, &time goes by, there's nothing that'll make you forget that first love &the first time they broke your heart. Because that part of your heart was broken away, &the pain that it caused will always stay in its place.

Some more truth--

philophobia: fear of falling in love, being loved, or being happy.

i decided i have that

Wed, 05 Oct 2005 02:33:25 GMT

Dear Whoever,
I finally realized that life really isn't how people describe it. Life isn't like movies, your life isn't just going to end up perfect. You need to work for it. People don't always care and appreciate things that you do for them. You need to realize who your real friends are and i've found most of mine. Not all of my friends are everything i hoped for, but then again not everyone you meet is going to be perfect and i've finally come to realize that. My friends are perfect the way they are and i'm extrememly happy i've found people like them. Hey, i want to kill some of them sometimes and somethings that they do make me want to shoot them, but I LOVE THEM for who they are.
Boys. I've been thinking about that subject lately, it's useless. It's useless to contemplate about if they're going to change or treat us any better. Truth is, they aren't. When was the last time you met a boy that didn't hurt you? I know i never have and if you have that's quite amazing, and i would like to hear your story. The first time i fell 'in love' was in the 6th grade and i haven't fell out of it. And to tell you the truth it was wonderful while it lasted, but afterwards it is absolutely joyless. I'll always love him no matter what, but i've decided i need to move on. I never thought i could say that, but i have and i will. 'When someone says "the last thing I want to do is hurt you", it just means they have other things to do first.' I think that quote is entirely true. Every boyfriend i've ever had, has said that to me at one point or another and in the end, has hurt me. It's complete and utter bullshit to me. Boys by far, are the biggest liars i've ever come across. I mean hey, i'm not going to lie, girls lie to an extent, but guys just take it above and beyond. I've never said i love you to a boy and never meant it, even when they've said it to me. You seriously can't just throw the word 'love' around, because after a while 'love' is going to have no meaning. Guys say they love a girl and bam, the girl throws herself on him. Uhm come on, now that he has said the 'i love you' phrase, it's okay to have sex. HAHA, thats awesome. i love the humor in that, don't you?
Whatever, i don't know why i'm really writing this because not everyone will read it, but too bad. I had to get this off my back.
Sincerely,
Alexa.

cosa le fottiti.

Sun, 02 Oct 2005 03:01:53 GMT

i hate how i've loved you.
i hate how sick you make me feel.
i hate how this makes me cry.
i hate how you've become so stubborn.
i hate how you've become so gullible.
i hate how you've become so ignorant.
but i truly hate how you've changed.

i don't know who you are anymore.

you dont want no drama, no no drama, no no no no drama.

Thu, 29 Sep 2005 02:17:48 GMT

middle school called.
it wants it's
drama back. =]

okay so you have a lot of years ahead of you,
i think you should take some time out of your fucking drama-filled life &start growing up.
good game?
we arent immature, you are.
get it?

grow the fuck up,
get the fuck out.

werdddd cuhhh.

....

Tue, 20 Sep 2005 18:57:52 GMT

todays one of those thoughtful days.
yikes.

Sun, 18 Sep 2005 20:39:16 GMT

so listen up - this sun hasn't set.
i refuse to believe its only me feeling.
just hear me out - i'm not over you yet.
it's love on the line. can you handle it?
so how do i do normal.
a smile i fake - a permanant wave of cue cards and fix it kits.
can't you tell - i'm not myself
i'm a slow motion accident.
lost in coffee rings and fingerprints
i don't wanna feel anything, but i do.
and it all comes back to you.

okay so in about an hour &a half im off to mat &ryans.
oh joy. =]

so im thinking i should straighten my hair kinda now.
great, talk to you later. <333 byez.

=]

Thu, 15 Sep 2005 21:49:24 GMT

gosh im good.

<3

aksgjsdrkhg;sfdhsdfh!!!

Sun, 11 Sep 2005 18:27:40 GMT

.... enough said.

i miss jullian, like kinda a lot.

Sat, 10 Sep 2005 20:57:00 GMT

made me laugh.

takeachance546: umm no boys recently, i cant seem to find a decent one...what a surprise?
gangstur x core: hah, wow. not a surprise AT ALL. :-D
takeachance546: yea its slim pickings especially here in hickville
gangstur x core: hahahshdas well its slim here in niggville
takeachance546: hahahaha

toniiightt. !#&@$

Sat, 10 Sep 2005 05:20:25 GMT

tonight was amazing.
i went to the football game with jill, macho, kevin, &xaiver.
i saw bianca &kaitlin there.
i sat with melissa for a while.
hooper showed up too.
so did lexi &heather.
i saw logan &joe play their instruments.
it was cute lol.
we left after halftime.
we lost.
wow.

i went to applebee's
with jill, bianca, kaitlin, kevin, &xaiver.
we met up with billy &courtney.
we saw kaitlins mom, shes so cute.
then hooper, macho, &sam came.
they all ate.
derek came.
kaitlins mom payed for the bill. (god damn)
+++ps i love her, wow.
we saw joe &logan &the whole marching band.

then after we went outside a hung around applebee's for an hour.
it was pretty fun.
we joked &just messed with eachother.
the boys were 2 stepping. hahhaha funny.
bianca, kaitlin, &i were having a talk about the list of guys we want to kiss before our life is over.
wow we named quite a few.
++++ps this is a list of guys that live around here lol.
gosh the list goes on &on, hhaha =].
so yeh then everyone started leaving.
we left &yeh.

now im home &waiting for tonight or tomorrow night to come along.
solid sounds studios.
woot woot.
-adonis
-4qq
-by the broken glass
-&then it happened.

kinda cant wait.
holy gizz.
<3333

mmmmm next weekend show.
-4qq
-kids like us
-until the end (last show)
omgggggz.

yehim tired as fuck at 1;18.
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG.
i hope im okay.
lol its a little early for me.
but yeh night people.
<333

++++PS. my friends own. <333

he's been [missed].

Fri, 02 Sep 2005 20:23:52 GMT

last night i was reading this jounrnal that i wrote a long time ago. it's like about me &mat. it mad me kinda depressed. i just miss him a lot, but he has a girlfriend &they 'love' eachother. it just brings back memories of how uhm me &him 'loved' eachother. i just miss having him there all the time, he put up with me, &that was awesome. i was such a hassle when i was 13. =]. but yeh right now i like miss it &wish i could like rewind to that point in time. it sucks.

i miss having someone around &like telling everything to. i miss him annoying the shit out of me &me locking myself in my room. i miss him coming over everyday after school &me telling him to leave. i miss him calling me up &asking me weird questions to see what we have in common. i just miss.... him.

i dont know what to asy about any of this. all the guys here are immature. i cant see myself lasting with anyone i know, except mat. that scares me. like i dont want to love him anymore.

i want to meet someone that i know i could last with i just want to meet someone like sweet &nice &caring &like i dont know. whatever. i dont know what to say. im done. i cant write anymore. DONT APPLAUD YET. lol.

<333 bye people. =|

...

Fri, 02 Sep 2005 01:23:33 GMT

when was the last time
you looked into a mirror?
because you've changed.
yeah, you've changed.

this is too my boo.

Thu, 01 Sep 2005 01:43:48 GMT

gina marie,
is my truth.
without her id like
die like yeh. <3

dont know what to say.

Tue, 30 Aug 2005 02:36:35 GMT

i have no idea what to write, im so confused &pissed at the moment. i cant express how i feel becuase i know people will read it &it will go around &then yeh. thats what i hate. i wish that the only people that could read this, were people i didnt know, so they cant judge me &cant tell other people what i say &think. i hate boys &cant stand them at this point. i did some stuff on saturday that i told myself i wasnt going to do. so much for willpower. im okay with all my friends again &&i truely love most of them. me &bianca fight sooooo much over dumb shit, but we are still best friends ¬hing can change that. i love that girl, me &her can do damage. "CARDS" for life. =]]] hahah. love it. uhm saturday theres suppose to be a get together, but only for certain people, so F U. =] lol okay uhm yeh i have really ntohing to say. im talking to kevin ross on the phone right now &hes saying 'who the hell writes in their live journal?' should i smakc him ro what? who agrees i should smakc him.

i hate to break this to you,
but being a coward is not a legitimate career.

friends sucks.

Sun, 28 Aug 2005 05:05:37 GMT

my friends officially suck.
my truth is gina.
thats about it.
all my other ones are seriously pieces of shit.

i need new people to hang out with.
i cant count on these other people.
i really want to move to somewhere else.

i want to move back to connecticut, where maxine &nicole &gabi are.
i love those girls more then anything.
they've never really treated me like shit
&i love them sooo much.
i cant wait for winter break, back to conn. to visit those hoes.
=] im soo excited for my senior year.
after that im moving the fuck out of florida &going back to conn.
wooo hooo.

but yeh, i also miss emily, shes a great girl &i miss her.
we spent every single weekend together, literally.
&she was totally awesome, gosh i miss her!
dammit, cme back.

in other news; tonight @pis was okay.
drama of course.
i mean wtf do you expect, preppy girlzz &'hawt' skater boyzzz = drama.
lyke omggzzz kill me.
it was suppose to be a fun night, but then people have to be gay &shit.
i was about to whoop a bitch, srsly.
not even kidding, HHHAHHAH^!@(#(!#*!#*.
die.
grow the fuck up.
thats my motto.
=] live by it.
or try to atleast, k AWESOME. <3
not.
but yeh, i have a headache, from doind an 8 ball.
lmao.
im leaving bye.
<3 peazzz owt girlie &boizzzz.
keep it tyte.

weekend.

Wed, 17 Aug 2005 01:34:59 GMT

ME &CHRISTINA RULE.
SO DO OUR INSIDE JOKES--

-used to make believe our boogie boards were horses.
-made up dances &thought we were good at it.
-play stupid games on my bridge.
-raced around the pool.
-played blockbuster becasue i had so many movies.
-played scream in my room &derek was the killer.
-kissed the frikken pool wall &made believe it was a backstreet boy. [ps this was when we were like 7]
-pinned abercrombie shorts on derek's wall because he was too punk. [when he listened to blink182, lol]
-my mom pulling off the doorknob &falling.
-our late night snacks.
-christina falling into the closet.
-our obession with mat broadhurst, til this day [for her.]
-our dancing on camera.
-our video right before me leaving to connecticut.
-our nysnc video 'wudddup dork' & 'what are yooooou doinnnnggg?'
-video games at her old house.
-our obssesion with 'crossraods' wow.
-jannnet &jaquies.
-cream cheese &sausage, lmao.
-christina peeing in her pants because i made her laugh.
-me putting my tampon in wrong, ew. lol
-my dads resturanut &us eating everything.
-us in my dads back office playing 'hide the key'
-me tipping over the shelf and braking everything &us rushing to clean it up.
-us going to the tennis quarts in WC &playing truth or dare, ew ew ew.
-christinas obession with scott when i dated him.
-my mom not wanting me to date nigs.
-DAN! omfgzzz!
-derek, christina &i slamming on my drums at 1 o'clock.
-phatboy102c, omg.
-me being a prude when i was younger, ew.
-our fights over backstreet boys &nsync [bsb is better]
-lauren breaking my fan clicker &i blamed it on christina &my mom smacking her.
-our songs we sang.
-lacrosse. <3
-our parties &sleepovers.
-our hardcore music in the car.
-derek slamming on his breaks &you freaking out.
-boom boom boom boom.
-tag on ashelys tree &i awlays won.
-my weird neighbors.
-bianca; i got chased by little kids, broke my toe, &got hit in the head with a knife! what else? lmao.
-moooooooooooooooooooo.
-beanie baby &flaggggeee.
-i pledge to the alligance to the FLAGGE!
-you falling into the pool at the winner circle becuase of mat.

ps. kevie &derek e. rule.
i love you boys, even though kevie's a fgt.
<3

back to school, back to school, to prove to daddy im not a fool.

Tue, 09 Aug 2005 02:21:14 GMT

okay this summer was fun while it lasted.
for that 1 WEEK of summer [ i joke ] i had some good times.
i miss connecticut like HELLA much.
&&im moving there when i get outta the hell hole. [school] ;-D

gosh, now its back to school.
&i second courtney, school needs to get blown up!
we need some terrorists up in coooraazlle spprizzle.
dont you think?

well anywho.
my classes are gay, so are the people.
im the ONLY white girl in my last hour. [literally]
i feel, ew.

here are some dumbass picchhhas for your enjoyment.
<3 peazzz.

comment please. im a lazy person &i donnt do this often. <33333

im in CT, mhm yeh.

Wed, 29 Jun 2005 16:03:06 GMT

okay so i've been in CT since sunday &i didnt go to neither the branford fireworks or east haven.
how gay is that? psht.
anywho i've been with gabi everyday &she starting to get really annoying, like i hate her.
HAHHAHAHHA funny, just kidding.
we have been camera whoers &took tons of pictures.
yes, yes we did.

okay so im just writing this for no reason.
uhm i miss everyone in florida.
especially my biffles, gina &bianca.
gosh yes i do.
OH &kevie ross.
OMG & MY KITTIES!!!!
i miss them more then all of you, haha.

mkay well im going to eat breakfast because uhm im hungry.
so i'll write in here later.
♥lovelovelovelove.

mhm my last fairwell.

Fri, 24 Jun 2005 20:58:50 GMT

so, im going to PIS tonight for my last goodbye &choooo kno its time to party. =]

tomorrow morning at around 4am, i leave for CT. please people give me a call, because i will be bored to tears in the car doing nothing, kthnkyou.

ill be in CT at around 12 or 1 on sunday, so im thrilled.
that night is the east haven fireworks, that means its time to party hardy. =D
i get to spend sunday night w/ my favorites maxine, nicole, &gabi.
i hope i see all my homies on sunday, im excited, but im going to miss everyone here, like lots.

gosh well im leaving tomorrow for 2 weeks.
wow, thats long &i get to miss all the shows ive been looking forward to.
GREAAAAT. =[
well, on the other hand my mom is letting me get a kitten &if we find one up there, i get to keep it. =D yay.
&this really weird kid kevin thinks im actaully going to name my kitty after him. heyyhahhahaa!
what a fggt, ew!
haha just kidding kevin is ga-reat &i will miss him so, i wont see him for a month &a half.
TEARS.

* whatev its almost 5 &i guess im going to get ready for PIS soon, fun shit.
bye ya'll, ill miss you.
♥ peace niggie.